27th May, 2019

Our Hearts Cry Out

Life is hard; the pain has never gone away! Sometimes I wonder how anyone can live with themselves; after what they did to Russell and his parents. I guess evil has many faces! I have written but a small part of what happened to Russell; it was such a devastating part of our lives.

I pray for guidance from above; to be able to reach others with my story of lies, deceit, manipulation, pain and hurt. I feel there are so many parents like us; who are unable to cope with the way this lifestyle has destroyed the family unit. I didn’t know how to deal with the way Russell turned his back on us and God. It’s a tough thing to deal with! Evil (the devil) is stirring around everywhere; to destroy whom he may.

It’s only through the grace of God I have made it! I thought I would die after Russell left; I didn’t want to live! God gave me a wonderful husband who helped me. I had to find a way to channel my hurt! Lowell and I loved Russell so much; our hearts were breaking from the pain. I started this website to help others know the truth about all that happened. It gave me a great comfort to be able to reach others with the truth; this is a horrible, destructive lifestyle. In telling Russell’s story; I am keeping his memory alive.

Russell was a trusting person who fell in with the wrong people. Many of our young people are lured into a life of homosexuality; by experimenting. They can’t turn back; this is an addicting, lethal lifestyle! Russell tried to turn back; but the devil kept after him. I don’t know much of what went on with Russell after he became involved with Kevin; he and his family alienated Russell from us. This is how it works; they get them far away from anyone who might be able to help them get away from the lifestyle.

It’s hard for me to write about some of these things; but when I do, I feel the presence of the Holy Spirit guiding me through the hurt. I know this is what would please Russell; to let everyone know the pain and hurt he had to go through.

Carolyn Groff

Ecclesiastes 12:1 Remember now thy creator in the days of thy youth, while the evil days come not, nor the years draw nigh, when thou shalt say, I have no pleasure in them.

Ecclesiastes 12:13 Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God, and keep his commandments: for this is the whole duty of man.

Ecclesiastes 12:14 For God shall bring every work into judgment, with every secret thing, whether it be good; or whether it be evil.

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